why i fear holding on than letting go

(a follow-up to a previous entry)

· I feel that if I hold on to someone/something for too long, it would be so painful letting go

· I might get use to having held on to somebody that I would loose who I am without it

· I lost the two poles that are supposed to be my foundation

· I am afraid of driving them away if I hold on to them

· I am afraid that the very few who I hold on to are going to let me go so easily

· I am afraid that if the ones I hold fails me, I would no longer be able to trust myself to hold on to another

· I might be shunned