If they know. . .

If they found out, I don't know what will happen. . . I might be shouted at. Again. I will be compared to my older sister. Why she is this and that. Even she would lecture me. I'm so tired being measured by what she is and what I'm not. Well, I might just admit to the fact that I'm a failure. . . I pray- wait, I don't do that- I wish I would be able to pull this off.