feeling drained and depressed

I hate this feeling. I have a lot of things to do but I just can't focus on anything. The week isn't even on its halfway, but the feeling is like it is already Thursday. My body wants to lie down and my brain already wants to shut down. I don't want to show may face to our thesis mentor tomorrow. I just don't want to think of what his comments will be on our paper. I just remembered, I have a lot of things to do tomorrow. Wednesdays are supposed to be my restday. Unfortunately, my professor scheduled a make up class. Thursday is a full day for me. I have 4 classes, each is a 1.5 hour class. I have to study for our graded dialogue in French, make handouts for my reporting and read the assigned materials for the two other classes (boring! plus, its long). I'm currently waiting for my thesis groupmate. I hope we finish early. . .

I'm discerning whether I would attend our make up class.

Trusting people??

Who are you to lecture of being careful on who to trust? You yourself do not know who you can trust. You do not know who are the people that only uses you. People who only stick by you because they need things from you.

If they know. . .

If they found out, I don't know what will happen. . . I might be shouted at. Again. I will be compared to my older sister. Why she is this and that. Even she would lecture me. I'm so tired being measured by what she is and what I'm not. Well, I might just admit to the fact that I'm a failure. . . I pray- wait, I don't do that- I wish I would be able to pull this off.

last exam

Tomorrow is my last exam day. It's for European Economics or EUROECO. I don't know how I should study for this subject. (*sigh*) Wish me luck!

Yesterday, my friend Pajoy came to Taft. . . She was meeting her cousin who studies in CSB to get something for her exam so she can transfer to CSB. From her music course in UST she's going to transfer to CSB and take HRIM. hehe. . .

I meet her in McDonald's with Steph. We talked about what happened to our "lives" and about a common friend, Dawn. We were all wondering what happened to her. Actually, I miss that girl. Then, the talk led to relationships of those two. . . no comment!

We were supposed to meet Pajoy after we took our exam, but unfortunately, she went home before we were able to go to our meeting place. . .

summer but not yet vacation

For this term, this is my first entry. I can't believe that I wasn't able to write, even once a month. (*sigh*) While everyone is already making way for the beach, other countries, other regions of the Philippines or anywhere else you wanna go or having all the time in the world to be a BUM, those who like me, who are in a trimester system, are on our way to finals week or if you are like the other med students who are taking up remedial classes. I had the Holy Week to study but do you think I studied? Of course not. It's so hard to study when everyone around me, is having their vacation. Oh! and I think I am going to fail my majors. . .

So what have happened to me during this term??

• I am so stupid to maximize my abscence in ENGLTRI. If I have known that there would be extra credit, if you never missed a class, I would have NEVER missed a single meting. But it's boring listening to the speeches of my classmates. . .
  
• I have a class during 4:50-5:50, MWF. It sucks! It's a major and by this time, all your energy is gone. . . As one of my classmates said, energy only lasts until 3 pm
• I swear, I hate the transformative type of learning. It requires a lot of your time researching, etc. But on the good side, you get to redeem your grade.
• There is one time, I skipped all of my classes for the day to go with my friends to Binondo.
• I skipped in all of my classes, at least once.
• I did my paper for my major on the day itself. Even the outline.
• I think I am going to fail my majors
• I love the sched MF 12:50-1:20
• I miss my long breaks, no matter how I ranted about it last term
• I am still continuing my French classes in alliance

So far this is all that I can recall. . . I think I am suffering from short term memory deficiency!!!